END OF SECOND YEAR & SUMMER PLANS
It's been a while since I last wrote a blog post, and it feels good to get back to writing again. This past term has been a tough one; especially mentally in preparing for my end of year exam and coursework deadlines. But most importantly it's has been the term where I have finally seeked help; something that I have refused to do for some time as I've been scared to admit my anxiety. It has been a great year though, but it's mostly been a year of realising that its okay to talk about things and not to bottle them up like I usually did.
I'm quite sad that I will be going into my final year at University in September. But yet I am so looking forward to it. It's crazy how quickly time at uni has gone by so quickly, and the thought of graduating next year is really quite daunting that my time at University is coming to a close sadly. I also find it crazy how much I've changed (in a good way) because of uni, and becoming more confident in myself has been a serious turning point in how I perceive myself and my own ability. I know it sounds quite cringe, but it is true and a lot of people have commented on it. Don't get me wrong, there is still more that I dislike about myself and my anxiety and quietness is still part of me, but I feel like it is less of a challenge.
This Summer, is something that strangely I am very apprehensive about. I'm sure to anyone but me, flying to New York and then travelling to Pennsylvania to work at camp sounds amazing and to me it is an amazing opportunity. But with a week to go, I find myself feeling even more nervous. It is going to be a challenge but I'm sure I will absolutely love it when I'm there.
I will be working as a ceramics teacher which I'm really excited about since I did Art A Level. I will be travelling for two weeks after working at camp, and for a worrier, it is a daunting prospect not knowing where I'll be travelling and who I'll be travelling with.
I've decided to write blogposts in the future of my experience at camp and my travels after. I feel like it will be good to document my time there and hopefully alleviate the worry of it all at the same time.
And so the count down begins...