I feel like the past month or so has really tested my ability of handling stress, and I have learnt that I don't handle it well. I am my own worst enemy at times, and I find it difficult to let myself take time out when I become so wrapped up in working. 
I forget how important it is to give myself a break, and my anxious mind is always thinking I should constantly be doing work all the time and keep on top of my reading. It was only until I managed to get continuously ill for over a month that I realised I don't give myself a break. 
I managed to stress myself out too much over so many different things that my immune system weakened. As soon as I was recovering from one illness, I caught another one and I felt like I was stuck in a vicious cycle that I couldn't get out of. I could't actually remember what it was like to not feel ill, and going to the doctors was a regular occurrence.
I missed out on social events, exercise has completely gone out the window; I haven't set foot in the gym for a month because I've been trying to get back to my usual self, and now I'm thinking all of this is just because I didn't give myself time to relax and destress. 

We are so often reminded of the things we need to do, goals we need to accomplish and deadlines we need to meet that sometimes we need to remind ourselves that it's also okay to take a step back and take time out. 

Emma x


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